Life sucks so I brought you a poem and told you about the real me

Good morning........ 

Okay, now I was kinda hoping to do a post on the Auryn Halloween party, but gosh-darnit, I forgot to upload my pictures because of some serious crap taking up all my brain power, serious hit like for instance a dentist appointment and a disagreement with our housing association (hope google translate is accurate here). Hell we barely had time to celebrate the fact that Jasmine and me have been together for 8 years (love you babe).

Since the auryn thing will have to wait, and I don’t really have that much to write about I will leave you with two things, I will do an interview/ survey thingy with myself so you can all get to know me better. First however I want to give you this.

Right now I know a lot of people who are in tough spots, are having very hard times or are being kept awake by serious worrying. Battling your way through life, sacrificing so much of yourself for others will drain you of all you’ve got. Now I know a thing or two about being in bad places and I also know that, even the most terrifying times, the toughest trials and the loneliest places are things that pass. A cliché as it may be, there is a silver lining. The scariest thing is also the greatest comfort, nothing lasts forever.

From my emo period, seemed to fit the poem

Never would I want this, never,

I don’t want to “come out stronger”

I have been fighting, ‘t seems forever

As each new day seems longer

And every thing seem wrong here

I cannot take this ever

The silver lining, I don’t see

Relief seems far away to me

I’ve swallowed bitter pills for years

But now I long to be, just free

But I will find the way

With help or on my own

I see there will be “that day”

When seeds I’ve sown

In me have grown

To a strength that I know will stay

Today may be the blackest

So tomorrow will be brighter

And though there’s a storm at the horizon

It’s still a little lighter

So here’s me….

I find your lack of education disturbing

Sidney Tuttel van Dorst a.k.a. Nocturnal Lure

Born: 9th of august 1975 (yes way back)

Favorites:

Food: Lasagne, Pizza, Kapsalon

Book: Lord of the Rings, Clive Barker’s Imagica, Rhyme of the Ancient mariner (ST Colleridge) counts as a book right?

Movie: StarWars all episodes (yes, so?), Hellboy, Near Dark

Color: Black, Red, Purple (yes completely Goth)

Bands: In Extremo, Opeth, Skyclad

Heroes in fiction: Darth Vader, Boromir, the Joker and Peter Griffin

Things I like:

Tarot, spirituality, mysticism, music, fantasy, tattoos, Art, reading and enjoying a good meal.

Things I am obsessed with:

Gaming (mainly xbox), Whisky and Sex.

Things I dislike:

Gossip (especially the hurtful kind), cliques, obsessive love of gadgets

Things I hate:

Michael Parkes

Ignorance… I don’ t mind you having other ideas than me and I don’t mind you being stupid but for god’s sake at least within your own potential think before you act/ speak, uninformed opinions and prejudice, authority or lack of personal choice.

Art you should check out:

Michael Parkes, Simon Bisley, Anson Maddocks

Best Tarot decks:

Shadowscapes, Rider Waite (boring but true) and Robin Wood (which I sadly don’t have anymore)

Favorite quote:

May the best of your past, be the worst of your future….